Mini Breakdowns are Good, Right?

In the words of one of my favs, Beth Moore: "Without faith it is impossible to please Him. And if we even have half a heart for God, He's likely to shake our perimeters and stir up a little excitement."


Man, the last thing I want is to miss the great adventures He has mapped out for me by shrinking back from a walk of faith!

All this being said, why is it that I still manage to have mini breakdowns like the one I had last night? I have been asking the Lord to challenge my faith and push the comfort zone boundaries. Well, He's done that by having us move and start a very different life here. I am so growing closer to Him through it, but it's still really hard.


I miss the comfortableness that I had in Orlando. Friends, home, usual weekend activities, knowing how to get to places without Mapquesting it. And even having a job...not that the job I had was easy. But it was what I was used to.


Don't get me wrong, being comfortable is not a bad thing. In fact, the Lord gives us periods in our life where we are very comfortable. However, comfort can have a lazy effect on my faith after a while. Hence, all the transitions now that are challenging and growing my faith.


Paul and I went to a sweet Senior Retreat at a lakehouse this past weekend. Had ALOT of fun tubing, being out on a boat, playing around, etc. The group of people were awesome and fun to be around. The last night we were there we had Communion out on the dock and had time to talk to God. I was looking up at the awesome stars and I remembered all of a sudden how the Lord is my Teacher. And how I adore it when He is teaching me the wonders of His Word. That's what He's doing with all these new transitions in my life. Teaching me.


Paul and I went to the beach on Saturday and we saw a dad teaching his little daughter how to surf. It was so adorable to see. She had little swimmies on, looked a little scared, but seemed to feel safe out in the waves with her dad. The dad didn't expect her to learn right away, but was getting her acclimated to the waves and surf. And that's what God's doing with me right now. He's going to get me through these transitions, but also wants me to learn through them.


So I'd have to say that my mini breakdown last night was actually a good human relief that was needed. It didn't mean I regret this move or didn't want to be here. I know this is where God wants us. Just needed a good old fashioned cry :).