How you doin?

Wow, can't you tell I'm not much of a blogger? It's been 9 months since I've written a post...shu, I could've had a baby by now. But no worries, no bun in the oven for now.
What is causing me to post after such a long time, you ask?
Well, first off, I'm in a very contemplative mood...which means I might be a little emo right now.  Don't get me wrong, life is pretty awesome right now...I really don't have anything to complain about. 

For all you "Friends" fans out there....remember Joey? "How you doin?" Oddly he led me to a realization from his iconic pick-up line: I miss people asking me how I'm doin...but particularly how I'm doin with God.


In college, I had people surrounding me in my life asking on a weekly basis how I was doing in my walk with the Lord. And that doesn't happen anymore. I ask others, but others don't ask me. I guess it's just more important to me & more full-of-impact to me when I have people asking me that.


Why? Because it communicates in my language that they care about my walk with God.


I realize we are in different seasons for different reasons. But I really miss this aspect that I got to experience so much in college. 


I guess God is using me alot right now to be the one invested in people's lives & caring about where they are at in their relationship with Him. So really, I shouldn't be complaining. But is it too much for someone to ask me on a weekly, bi-weekly or even monthly basis...."Karis, how are you doing in getting to know & experiencing God in your life?"


I guess it boils down to this: I miss having at least one person who showed they cared about my own walk with God. 

God does bring people into my life that will be super encouraging with that...but it seems to be a one-time thing. But He does this when I do most need it. And that is why He is my Great Provider. 


I want to be discipled how God is using me to disciple.


But God knows what I need. And I need to trust Him on that.

Bring on the Fire

My early bday present...TURBO FIRE. I've been doing Turbo Jam for the past like 4-5 years so this will bring an awesome freshness to my workouts!

Call me crazy...who gets excited about a workout program...that's their bday present??

This seems pretty intense & I'm gonna do it...it was over $100 so I better do it haha. I have a sweet friend doing it with me so that should help too :).

I might provide updates on my progress....we'll see. ;)

"Life's Not Fair"

Was what my mom used to ALWAYS say to me. But really life isn't fair. Let me give you a few reasons why I'm feeling this at the moment:
1. My hair is frizzy & curly
2. I love Fl, but it's climate hates my frizzy & curly hair
3. I can never grow my nails out
4. My left eye can never seem to catch up to my right (I say this entirely with humor btw...I'm very confident about my eye) :)

5. I love heels yet I'm 5 ft 10 in shoeless...below sea level....at the bottom of the Grand Canyon
6. I love my name, yet people always call me Karen, Kara, Kathy, Kathryn, Kareese

Ok, so those were some serious, yet humorous reasons. Let me share with you some of my less humorous reasons as to why life is not fair for me:
1. I seem to always have a major stress/worth as an employee issue with whatever job I have. i.e. Social work & now I'm some political vendetta target
2. I'm away from all my really good girlfriends & have yet to even come a hair close to finding any up here.

3. My schedule is rarely actually based around my own schedule....it's around Paul's work or his seminary classes.
4. What I want to be when I grow up is a mom. Well, I'm grown up, but it's not yet time for that. What do in the mean time?
5. I'm not super outgoing & talkative & funny
6. I don't make friends really easy
7. You're not good enough for your job

8. Your'e not really good at anything....even dance anymore.

So...ya that got a little out of hand huh? Notice how it started out with "I" this or that, but progressed into "You're not" this or that?
Man, look at how easily Satan can influence how you feel based upon your thoughts. I seriously did not plan to write #4-8. I'm not saying that "Oooo Satan is controlling my fingers and making me type." But I AM saying that all the thoughts of why life's not fair do not come from God influencing me.

God has blessed me with SO much! Why is it so hard sometimes for me to remember this & to focus so much on why life's not "fair"? I know why, but it's incredibly maddening. Grr to my flesh & Grrr to the fact that I let my guard down so easily....spiritually.
I wanna kick that lion in the FACE that's always prowling around waiting to devour me. Thanks goodness God

is way more powerful than my kicking foot to the face.

Next post....a little more positive